Every god damn morning I wake up around 5 or 6, why??? Because I had to wake up the person next to me for almost 3 weeks at 5, for work.
This is bullshit now cause I have no reason to be awake at this ungodly hour. Worst part, when I wake up at 5 I’m more chipper and rested. When I wake up at 6 I spring awake with an “oh fuck” feeling.
You impacted my life and said you cared, said you had feelings for me but couldn’t act on them. Slept and showered with me, cuddled with me on the couch while I watched TV. Now I’m here. Alone. And I’m waking up every morning for nothing.
I don’t regret being with you the way I was, I quite enjoyed it actually. But you will never be who I thought you were, you’ll never be the person I want in my life, and that is depressing.
I’m going back to sleep.